Sofia

I am a searcher. I'm constantly digging into psychology to find out who I am. In 2016 I found out that I am a HSP person and more recently I found out that I'm an INFJ. What does those to things mean then? Well that's exactly what I am going to tell you now. 

 

INFJ is one Myers-Biggs 16 personality types. It is rarest one of them only 1-2% of the population has it. If you are not familar with that this personality types are I recommend you this visit this site. I'm gonna tell you what my type stands for and how I experiance it. 

 

The I in INFJ stands for Introvert. Being introverted person doesn't have to mean that you are a shy person altough it is very common but what it really means is that you need to be alone to recharge. You get energy from being alone and you rather spend time alone than with people you don't know very well. The older I get the more comfortable I get with the fact that I am an introvert because I realise that it's a huge part of myself and it always will be. It's not a bad thing, it's just something I was born with. Altough I used to be extremly shy, I am not anymore. I am not gonna lie I can still be very shy but that is mostly around people I'm not feeling very comfortable with. 

 

The N in INFJ stands for iNutitive and what it basically means is that I tend to focus more on what is going on. I see patterns and possbilities. I see the big picture instead of the small one. That is also why I am so creative and good with colour combinations. I see the details in that big painting, I notice things that not many others would notice. I always focus on my own imagination rather what actually is correct. 

 

 

The F stands for Feeling I always think with my heart. I always focus in what I feel and what I like. But I also focus on what other people feel. It means that personlity types with the F are more empathetic. I can sometimes see people emotions before they can even see it themselves. I can instantly read if someone is feeling bad or not. And when someone actually reaches out to me in terms of feeling bad, I feel everything they are feeling. I don't feel bad for them I feel bad with them. I might not be able to relate what the person is going through but I get so emotianlly detached with what the person is saying that I feel that I am going through the same thing. This also means that I get emotianlly detached with things on my own. I get too compassinate about things. I get so involved and so detached that it sometimes gets too much. 

 

And lastly the J in INFJ stands for Judging It doesn't necessarly means that we are more judgemental than others it mostly means that we are more organised and prefer much more structure. I relate to this so much because as soon as things are getting of my hands or as soon as I don't have a clue on what's going on, I tend to feel confused and uncomfortable. That means that I always have to be prepared for everything I do. If I can't write it down, I plan everything in my head. People who know me very well, knows that I often write my own lists when I'm about to do something big and I often prepare what to say. And most people who know me also know that I'm a very organised person i my head and hate chaos. 

 

So to sum this all up. INFJ basically means that we are more compassionate and we feel a lot. I can easily say that I am so glad I made this test because it has explained to me why am this way. For some of you that might just so strange, like why does one internet test makes you understand yourself better? Yeah well, let me just tell you. Take the test and see for yourself. But let me also tell you this: 

 

All my life I have felt like I don't fit in. I have felt as if I'm not normal. I have felt that I am not like anyone else. I have felt that I'm alone in most things that I do and feel. But when I found about the INFJ personality being only 1% of the popualation it all made sense. It's the type that is hard to understand, even for ourselves. Even people who have known me for 20 years say that don't understand me and if truth be told, I don't even understand myself. I have so many emotions, so many feelings and so many things my mind that I sometimes cannot control it. That is something other INFJS constantly are refering too. It's normal for a personality type like this one. Taking this test made realise that I'm one of a kind but I am not alone in feelings this way. Does that make any sense? 

 

And what about HSP?

 

HSP stands for Highly Sensitive Person.

It means that when I feel things the battery is not at 100% it gets overloaded. The procent is not enough for the emotions.

We are more sensitive to all kinds of things. Light, volume - you name it.

I can instalntly feel if something is going to happen, if the energy in the room is bad and is very sensitive to negative energy.

Music and all kinds of art in general can make me feel so much. I can cry just by looking at a beautiful painting or listen to a song with emotinal vocals.

I always used to hear growing up that I'm too sensitive and to be honest, I still hear it. 

I tend to become stressed an overwhelmed very easily. 

I feel so much on the inside but doesn't show it much in the outside. 

 

To all my fellow HSP and INFJs out there. You are beautiful just the way you are. You are not crazy, you are not too sensitive and you are good enough. You are good just the way you are. You are special. Every person is. And if things are getting too overwelming try to recharge. Find you inner self. Put your phone away. Listen to music. Meditate, do whatever makes you feel comfortable. And most importantly find your own values, find what you want to stand for and what makes you comfortable for your inner self. Also, remember, it is okay to feel sad, it is okay too feel bad but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Let yourself feel sad but don't judge yourself for it. Embrace and do whatever you can to make yourself feel better.